No Regrets

Should I Be Bold Enough To Speak In This Moment?

A Reverent Heart Must Surely Be Unbroken

CHORUS With No Regrets Should I Be,

Lost In Forgetfulness With Not Regrets

In My Head, Faithfully Shed

Should I Be Rich, Or Poor And Scattered

In My Dreams?

While All The Figures

That Surround Me Live Unguarded

CHORUS And Free From The Worry

Free From The Dark That Lives In Me

Free To Embark On The Passion

You've Favorably Fashioned In Me

CHORUS

One of my favorite songs...one of redemption...by Jennifer Knapp.

Is it just me?

Anyone else ever feel like their own problems drag them down in slow motion while the rest of the world goes by in fast forward?

God, thank you that you don't abandon me. Thanks that I can get up and come to the cross. Thanks that Your yoke is easy and Your burden light. Help me to see You when I'm only seeing myself. I don't want to drown in self-pity.
Amen

Where is it?

Where's my identity? Is it in my friends' approval? Or my parent's approval? What my church family thinks of me? The mask I wear? What my boss or co-workers say about me? The list could keep growing. Bottom line my approval lies with Christ. His Spirit convicts me of sin so I know when to repent. He tells me I'm His daughter. He gives me rest. It's a PROMISE.

For if Joshua had given them rest, God would not have spoken of another day later on. So then, there remains a Sabbath rest for the people of God, for whoever has entered God's rest has also rested from his works as God did from his.
-Hebrews 4:8-10

I don't find rest in my friends, even though I may try. I don't find it by throwing myself into work. I don't find it by trying my hardest to relax while pushing thoughts out of my head of what must be done that day. I find rest in Christ alone. My joy must be found in Christ. And that is where the rest will come from.

Post inspired by last weeks sermon at Redeemer Fellowship, given by Kevin Cawley, on Sabbath rest.

Who I Am

I have been thinking about things I like to do and who I am at the core. Here are some random things I've come up with.

• I like Coke better than Pepsi. Definitely.
• I really like to play cards.
  
• I am afraid of a lot of things and I wish I was more adventurous.
• I like to read and write. (Anybody know of a good site to get more traffic on my blog? :)
• I have been places and seen things I wish I hadn't.
  
• I have loved and lost.
• People mean a lot to me, but I don't always see past my own needs to the needs of others.
• I am sensitive, but I put up a front.
• I spend too much time watching TV and movies when I should be outside.
• Coffee is so good!
• Pro football is about the only sport I watch. Sorry everyone, I only watch the championship NCAA game.
• I like a lot of different music generes, but I never listen to classical. Country is about the only music I loathe.
• I find that I don't like Christian bookstores. They don't support the classic authors...only trendy new people I don't read.
• My favorite things to shop for are books and coffee (yeah for Barnes and Noble!)
• I just started going to a new church
• One of my goals is to get an apartment in Westport
• I like tattoos. I want one.
• If I could go to one place before I died it would be Russia.
• My favorite book of the Bible is Romans.
• Confession: I own more books than I have time to read. I spend too much time in Half Price Books.
  
• My dream job is in a bookstore.
• My favorite color is green.
• I talk on the phone at least 20 hours a week as part of my job
• I love to go fishing.
• I hardly ever go to bed before midnight.
• I don't really like Starbucks. I like to go to the local chains.

I think that's about it for now.

Baptized

I was reading the account of Jesus' baptism the other day (Matthew 3:13-17). I was wondering what it would have been like to be John. Here he is, prophesying about the One who is to come, the One who is greater than he or any other man...and Jesus comes and asks John to baptize Him! John wants to refuse and have Jesus baptize him, but Jesus answered in a mysterious way: "Let it be so now, for thus it is fitting for us to fulfill all righteousness." So John baptized Jesus. And God was pleased.

This passage made me think of how gracious God is. He sent his Son as a man, completely human and fully God. He didn't just go through motions and rituals. He obeyed His Father. He was born a baby, baptized and began his ministry, crucified, raised from the dead, and ascended to heaven. He is the model for baptism here. New life. Obedience. Daily death to our flesh. Picking up our cross and following the Father. Our ultimate goal? Eternity with the Father.

John was obedient. He baptized the Christ. He died. He is now alive with Christ. I want to daily die. I want faith like that of John's. I want to have eternity in mind throughout my life.

I don't know if this makes any sense, but it was on my mind. If not, disregard it as ramblings. :)

Merry Christmas, friends!

I can't believe it's here already! Another year is on its way out. Anyone else feel like they're getting old? :) I mean, this year seemed to flash by.

My job at Pie Lady is over now. I'll be looking for a new job after the first of the year. Hopefully something more permanent...one of my goals this year.

Anyone else have new years resolutions, or is it too early?

Anybody...?

Thanks for all the comments about my dad's job. I really appreciate all of you who've shared the love. My confidence in your care is growing. You're opinions are no longer necessary. You know who you are.

Does anybody really know who I really am? What I struggle with? Does anybody care? Does anybody see that I'm hurting? Would anybody want to know, or would they just reject me?

If I died tonight...


would it matter?